Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Not How Things Are "Supposed" To Be...

I had a conversation this morning with one of my good, long term friends. She is very excited (and I'm excited for her), as her boyfriend took her to look at engagement rings yesterday. As we talked about cuts and types (which I have entirely no clue about), we eventually traveled to talking about how weird the situation was. Weird not to be taken in a negative connotation. Just... different. If you would have asked the group of friends fifteen years ago where we'd be today, it would have been a completely different set-up than what it is now.

For a long time in my life, I was jealous of others: the fact that most of my friends graduated college exactly four years after high school; most of them continued on to great jobs and an opportunity to attend grad school.

In the last few years, I have realized that there's a masterplan for everyone, and it's God's masterplan. There have been a lot of situations in my life that at one point I wanted to change.

After a re-evaluation, I understand that there would be absolutely no way I'd be where I am today without each and every one of the experiences I've had. Sometimes I think I should be really proud of where I've come from and who I have become. In reality, I owe everything I am to God's graciousness.

Looking back ten to fifteen years ago, I obviously had different plans for myself. I am infinitely grateful that those plans were not God's plans. I wouldn't trade where I am today for the opportunity to change my past or anything I have experienced. It is fair to say that I am the happiest I have ever been. Grace be to God!

Do you feel this way? Would you change the past?

1 comment:

  1. I like this attitude :)

    And there are LOTS of things I would change about my life, but I know it's impossible. So I just work with what I have.

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