new.... everything?

been an up and down and back up and back down day today... and i'm super happy it's soon coming to an end, because i'm tired and have too much on the docket for this week.

today i have been super down about school. i just feel like ever since i left the english rhelm, i haven't been myself education-wise. while an english (and secondary ed) major, it was never an issue to study. i loved the material being taught, and i understood it. i loved writing the papers, and i had a great time thinking critically about pieces of literature.

sometimes i'm not sure why i changed my mind. my feeling that i'd get overwhelmingly upset at tenured teachers who didn't care about students consumed me. i really should have been thinking about the good i could do for kids (or adults, or just anyone i could teach) as opposed to the negative. alas, such is life.

when i did change my mind about teaching, my professors at mckendree (and the provence's) were surprised. i was met by a lot of "but you'd make a great teacher" sayings.

what's the bottom line here?

i work well with people. no matter the age.

i've got two different people pushing me to finish a degree right now: one happens to be my awesome manfriend ben, the other my great friend (and confidant, among other amazing things) roxanne. rox is studying to be a high school counselor, and when i have education questions, she's the first i think of.

i've recently emailed her discussing (and questioning) my options concerning a degree... and rox delivers. i was happily greeted by an email with lots of helpful links and opinions. i've checked into a program at a catholic school in st louis (fontbonne) that will allow me to obtain a communication/english focused bachlor degree in business. (the exact degree is in corporate communication.) i've gotten some feedback pretty quickly... and the course begins in about 2 weeks. frighteneing. but i'm (very) quickly checking into it, and if things can work out... i could have a bachelors by the end of next summer. how very cool is that?

anyway, my parents are some-what hesitant with this head-first jump into a program. (i believe they're thinking more about the financial end of things at this time.) i've just got a lot to figure out (and subsequently do) in the next few weeks if this is going to happen.

i'm really excited and say THANK YOU to rox. and ben gets just as big of a THANK YOU for everything he does as well.

i'll keep you all posted on what's up with all of this.

and today i got some awesome cds. you can read about them in my music blog.

i hope to not skip anymore days in blogging, so here's to hoping i'm back tomorrow with more to say!